In the side box I see here as I write this, I see there are a lot of topics about “knitting mojo”. While I may have a lag in that, too, I feel this is different.
For me there is a spirit to knitting. It’s a way to touch and feel the fibres run through my fingers, the sound of the clicking needles, and the brain to read & comprehend the pattern. It’s cathartic, releasing, and sparks joy.
At least until recently. Now when I pick up the needles (or hook because I also crochet) all I hear is negative talk. The words that come to me are mean and awful. I hear sentences like, “Why start this when you know you won’t finish it?” “That color will look awful for this ______.” “Ugh, another piece you will have to frog half way through?” These thought hurt and so I now am avoiding the crafts I love.
For example, last night I was sent home early from work because we were slow (so nice). It was a glorious day and all I could think all the way home was spending the afternoon on my patio under the umbrella in my sunsuit listening to my favorite podcast and knitting while my boys played in the grass with the dog. I got home, change into my suit, grabbed a drink, opened the umbrella and as soon as i picked up my knitting tote, I literally felt a shift of momentum. I heard the voice. Her name is Audrey and she stole my spirit.
Do you have periods like this? Do you have voices? I also have Peaceful Penny, Mean Mellie, Bully Barb, Sincere Cicily, Daring Danielle, Beautiful Betsy, Loving Linda. But Audrey is a thief. She is Arduous. Annoying.
Which one of your voices are you hearing today? Know that you are enough, loved, beautiful, smart, kind, gracious, and full.
Have a great weekend.